Ever since that day, talks have never been smooth sailing between us. All because of my so bad temper. I will never fail to start bringging up that SAME matter... never fail to start losing my temper on him...
Come Thursday... The day I suffered from real bad stomach cramps. Is it because of the cramp? Or is it because of THAT matter? Anyway, did not eat any proper meal from then till Saturday.
She came on Thursday. I did not know. He said he would be going to Malysia actually... They went to watch movie. Asked me along twice. I said, "NO!" It is either me or her... Of course, there seem to be no way out already. It has to be her. Will be parying that miracle will happen one of these day.
Could not sleep that night... Called him at 5am. He was just beginning to fall asleep. Of course, with her beside him.
Called me in the morning. After he left home. Was suppose to bring her to Sentosa. In the end, God knows where they went to.
Called me when he reached Malaysia...
Called me again to cool me down...
Said he will call me again. But I waited his call for the whole night... Not even once did he call.
Messaged him every hour. Message was not sent through... Keep having wild imaginations... Almost went crazy then...
For the whole of Saturday, have been trying to contact him. Last resort: Called his home in Malaysia. Do not ask me how I got the number. You will not want to know. I was taking a big risk then. He may hate me forever... For "spying" on him till this extent.
However, that was not the case. He was supposedly to come back today. But, because of me, because he knows how depressed I was, he came back yesterday. Had a talk with me. I could really feel the pain he was in then. Imagine... An egoistic guy... Could actually talk till his eyes turn red... till his eyes fill with tears... till he really kneel to beg me for forgiveness. I told myself I have to be strong. I cannot let tears take control of me. I succeeded. Manage to not drop a tear at all in front of him last night.
Went to work this morning. The first time ever working on a Sunday... and alone... A very quiet day. Manage to leave at 4pm sharp.
Went to Orchard to meet Wendy... She wanted to shop for her New Year clothes. I so do not have the mood for the New Year this time round... God knows why...
After combing the whole of Orchard, she managed to get a set of clothes...
Went to Cafe Cartel for dinner. My eyes could hardly open already. Did not have a proper sleep since Thursday. But he said I even snored in my sleep last night!!! Hurried home after dinner. One reason was because I wanted to sleep already. The other was because my handphone's battery went flat already. Was afraid that he would call me...
Guess it is high time for me to change phone already... The battery life span is shorter... It does automatically off and on by it self... Spooky...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
2:47 PM